[Like everything in life, pleasure comes at a price.
Sakamoto does his best to restrain any lewd noises, despite the almost irresistible desire to sigh as Zura prepares him so carefully for what they are about to do. The starved look he gives his friend is such an honest one, peeking through the veneer of obstinate boorishness and joy. It's clear from the look in his eyes that he's never married the two, intimacy of the mind and body, and whatever pampering he's experienced previously has all been paid for. He will be paying for this too, when he drinks too much and falls into the arms of random strangers across the universe and he'll imagine someone else entirely.
He has a sinking feeling that Zura will become a person he thinks about, a person he thinks about but cannot touch, like another very important woman who he sees more frequently. But there is a difference between those two relationships, he knows he cannot have her, he has never seen her naked and denies his feelings for her outright, despite how strong and visible they are. His very pretty friend, on the other hand, likes to be held and doesn't mind holding, and is going to make a very beautiful mess of Sakamoto's body tonight.]
Don't be sad later, okay?
[Spoken as if he's reminding himself.]
You're on this planet with so many wonderful gifts! I believe in you and what you can do. That is more important than whatever this is.
[Softly, as he tries to conceal the fact that he's hurt by his own words (usually he wouldn't be, because that is the truth and that is how he is, this is why he doesn't fuck friends), his lips part briefly.]
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Sakamoto does his best to restrain any lewd noises, despite the almost irresistible desire to sigh as Zura prepares him so carefully for what they are about to do. The starved look he gives his friend is such an honest one, peeking through the veneer of obstinate boorishness and joy. It's clear from the look in his eyes that he's never married the two, intimacy of the mind and body, and whatever pampering he's experienced previously has all been paid for. He will be paying for this too, when he drinks too much and falls into the arms of random strangers across the universe and he'll imagine someone else entirely.
He has a sinking feeling that Zura will become a person he thinks about, a person he thinks about but cannot touch, like another very important woman who he sees more frequently. But there is a difference between those two relationships, he knows he cannot have her, he has never seen her naked and denies his feelings for her outright, despite how strong and visible they are. His very pretty friend, on the other hand, likes to be held and doesn't mind holding, and is going to make a very beautiful mess of Sakamoto's body tonight.]
Don't be sad later, okay?
[Spoken as if he's reminding himself.]
You're on this planet with so many wonderful gifts! I believe in you and what you can do. That is more important than whatever this is.
[Softly, as he tries to conceal the fact that he's hurt by his own words (usually he wouldn't be, because that is the truth and that is how he is, this is why he doesn't fuck friends), his lips part briefly.]
I know that's somethin' ya already understand.